Sometimes things SUCK

This week has been a test of every bit of patience I have and it’s only Wednesday. 

I don’t have weeks like this very often and I am a pretty “even keeled” person, but this week I have been challenged. 

I swear that all the planets are in some kind of retrograde, hurricanes are hitting all the coastlines and volcanos are erupting while sharknadoes are sweeping through the plaines. 

Ever have a week like that?

I’ve spent half of the day wondering if I am having a nightmare while sleepwalking with my eyes open. Some times we face challenging situations and sometimes we’re dealing with challenging people. This week has been both simultaneously. 

• I’ve spent time arguing with reality, and then self regulating. 

• I’ve spent time arguing with people, and then self regulating. 

• I’ve spent time hoping someone would change, and then self regulating. 

• I’ve spent time trying to change said person instead of hoping, and then self regulating.
  I’ve spent time desperately not flipping on the bitch switch (because I reeeealllly wanted to dish it back out) and then self regulating.

• I’ve spent time muttering about things I can’t change no matter how much I try, and self regulating. 

• I’ve spent time arguing with myself about whether or not to be vulnerable with you today by sharing my struggles and not “looking like a strong coach”, and self regulating.

• I’ve spent time trying not to be crabby, and continuing to self regulate.

All this happened today and I am still self regulating. Self regulating is keeping me sane, it’s calming my nervous system, it’s keeping me from snapping at people who don’t deserve it. 

• Self regulation looks like breathing exercises to calm my brain. 

• Self regulation looks like activating my vagus nerve by alternating a cold press on each side of my neck. 

• Self regulation looks like submerging my face in cold ice water. 

• Self regulation looks like realizing that I can’t change my circumstances, but I can decide how I want to react to them. 

• Self regulation is self care. 

• Self regulation is taking care of ME. 

• Self regulation is growth from the person I was to the person I am. 

• Self regulation is the stepping stone to resilience when things are shitty, and hard. 

I almost didn’t share this with you because of the hot mess I am right now… but it’s real, and I know each of you have gone through this and can relate. 

I’m exhausted and I might cry a little before I tuck myself in to bed tonight, but I have tools to calm my frazzled nerves and tomorrow is a new day. My circumstances may not change tomorrow but I will continue to self regulate, love myself and know I am worthy no matter what happens.  I will be kind to myself. I hope you will be too. 

Much love to you!
Chris